Tuesday, July 31st
On this sunshiny morning, Clayton and I were on our way to
the Jordan River temple where my mom’s stepmom, baptized just over a year ago
into the LDS church, was going through the temple for her first time. Totally
awesome! We were nearly there when my Daddy called. I was driving, so Clayton
answered, and soon I heard him say unnerving things like “Ohh, man” and “Are
you okay?” and repeatedly “Okay, we’ll tell her.” What the…? Confused and
concerned, I tried to picture what might have happened. An accident? Dad’s
voice sounded too normal for someone in dire condition. Lost in thought, I missed
our next turn.
Clayton “hung up” the cell and I made him regurgitate the
conversation back to me. Well, Dad’s motorcycle slipped on oil on his way to
the temple; he wasn’t going very fast; he had a gash in his ankle; and he was
in an ambulance. It was a little shocking. Things like ambulances and
motorcycle crashes usually suggest far worse results than a gash in the ankle,
and Dad seemed alright. I spoke my thoughts aloud, reflecting especially on the
fact that Dad would be alone in a hospital for more than two hours. That idea
didn’t sit well with either of us, and before we got out of the car we decided
to visit him.
But first we had to tell Mom.
In the temple, cell phones are off or on silent. Mom had
gotten there earlier with Grandma and was already inside. I showed the temple
workers my recommend for the sole purpose of retrieving Mom. After a worker
left to get her I realized I’d mentioned only that Dad was in an accident. I
feared that Mom would think he was seriously hurt or worse. Soon as she arrived,
I burst out “He’s okay, Mom! He’s okay!” and the worker said, “I didn’t tell
her anything.” Oh.
I gave her the details. The worker asked if Mom was going to
stay, and she said quietly, “I probably…should.” Mom would be a big support for
Grandma, and plus I could go to Dad. She was torn, but chose to stay. Clayton
and I tried to imagine what it would be like to picture your spouse injured in
a hospital for two hours without you there. But we felt she couldn’t have been
in a more peaceful place to wait to see him than the temple.
At the Hospital
After wandering around lost among 2 buildings of the wrong
hospital and 9 buildings of the right one (and I in my 3-inch heels), we
finally found Dad. He called right before we found him, wondering if someone
was coming to see him, and lit up when we stepped into his room. It was hard to
miss the wide and bleeding laceration on his left ankle. His foot was covered
in dry blood. We hugged and he told his tale, of how he took an exit from Salt
Lake City onto I-15 that he’d never taken before on his bike. He was stopped at
a red light before the on-ramp; then the light went green, he turned, and
suddenly he and his bike went separate ways.
The first blessing in all this was that he wasn’t going very
fast, maybe 10-15 mph, as he was informed from the second blessing in all
this—the ambulance sitting across from him at the light who saw it all happen.
They estimated his speed, and also said that he’d flown over his handlebars. He
had no idea about that. When your body flies, there’s no up and down. Just
adrenaline and a panicky sensation that comes from your body moving too fast in
directions that your brain didn’t tell it to move. HazMat arrived quickly and
speculated that it might be a diesel spill. Dad stood up, aware of a pain in
his calf, and thought he’d be able to get his bike up. Of course the medics
asked if he was alright. He was, until he noticed the blood seeping out of his
shoe. Things got a little different after that.
What hit me the most was when my Daddy told us how it felt,
the swinging of his motorcycle’s back end, the sudden launching of his body through
the air. He was still shaken, and it brought tears to both our eyes. The left
side of his helmet was scratched up. For a helmet, it didn’t look so bad. But
then you have to imagine your head sliding on the ground fast enough for it to
get that scratched, and that’s plum scary. Then you have to imagine psychos who
ride motorcycles without helmets in the first place, whose faces would not have
fared as well as the helmet when grated against the ground. Fortunately, Dad is
no psycho. In fact, his feet were normally protected too with boots, but on
this fateful ride, he wore his Sunday shoes instead.
All this…at no more than 15 mph. Makes it seem a little
ridiculous that his ankle got so mangled, but that’s how it goes. Powerless
against physics. My thoughts wandered to what might have happened if he was
going faster, and I choked up. This was a time when I turned to my beliefs, my
religion. Believing that when I lost a loved one, I would see them again when I
died. The ultimate and only comfort when loved ones are lost.
A Side Note on Passing
Out
I learned about myself that I don’t get queasy from the
sight of blood. Or needles. Or needles with blood. If Dad was in pain, I would
not have been able to watch. But laying there on his stomach, speaking with me
calmly with his foot propped up, I was able to watch them pry the injury apart,
clean it with saline, and sew the tendon up.
Clayton, however, had left long before then. After the
needle took Dad’s blood, actually. Dad had borrowed my health insurance card,
and as he was giving it back to me, I noticed that Clayton was leaned forward
in the seat beside me, face in his hands. I was about to ask if he was alright,
when his breathing changed, like he was snoring. I put my hands on his back and
said his name, but no response. He’d passed out. The nurse guy came over, sat
him up, and rubbed his chest, all the while saying his name until he woke up.
Poor Clayton felt sick and clammy, and escaped to the lobby to sleep it off.
Apparently passing out is no fun, but I find it to be such a
phenomenon. Such crazy physical changes that happen for no conscious reason. What
a day to reflect on how special, and how fragile, our bodies are. Anyway, they
stitched Dad up, bandaged him, and Mom took him home. He’s doing great. He
feels sorest from the crutches.
No pictures for this post...not because none were taken, but
because I’m sure not everyone wants to see what a bloodied, cut-open ankle
looks like.
Holy crap Shauna!! I am sooo glad your Dad is alright!
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